Fighting Back! "Getting Back to ME" Part 3

Chapter 3....I didn't GIVE UP         

                                                         

                                                        

Just moments ago I felt off with my story with me fighting my anemia which is a major factor in my life.  I remember it like it was yesterday Shiners.  Again I lay in this bed sleeping away....I wake up wanting to go right back to sleep. I have never just slept the day away-not even when I am sick!

Oh well-once again the fighter in me would not stand for it and I'm NOT! Let me tell you what I did....I got up, got my butt out of bed  and took a shower, washed my hair, did my homework and more.  I kept moving. I turned on some music and kept moving.  I went back and read my blog, I watched my kids play and laugh, I Wii bowled, I just danced to Just Dance 2, I looked at my twitter and saw how so many look forward to communicating and getting their daily dose of Positivity from me.  I looked over my transcripts from school....A+ here B+ there more A's and more A's, Dean' list, President's list.  I am in no way gloating-this is what I had to do to get my mind right because I wanted to give it all up because of this blasted anemia. Then Shiners....I saw it!

I saw it alright....that Bleeping D!  Dang it!! I said all because I am anemic. That D saved me but crushed me. I never had one of them before. So I step back up to the plate this term Shiners and I will have 2 shiny fat A's! Let me tell you why-Because I'm getting back to "ME"

That's right...me and this anemia are going toe to toe!  I'm no quitter-I don't give up at anything!  I will find me in the process.  I will relax, I will eat ice cream, I will laugh, blog my heart out, smile abundantly, and whip anemia's butt!

See I am Ms. Positivity!! I am not mean in any way, I am a loving mother of 2, loving pre-wife of one, God fearing and as long as I have faith the size of a mustard seed I will prevail.  I will take my iron pills, take my B-12(because my body does not produce enough) and Shine as bright as I can for me, and every one I love and care for!  You will see a different me-I will be calm, spunky, witty, funny, and full of life.

This may seem simple, but for one who is dealing with anemia that has knocked me off of my square-it is major!

See Shiners I need you guys....One of my great friends sent me this on Facebook the other day: Kelly Reid
"Have I told you lately how special you are? You are an amazing woman! You are truly an inspiration. Here I am thinking how in the world am I going to balance work and school and then I think of you. Not only an FT employee, a student, a mother (dang good one at that!) a girlfriend, a friend to many and a blogger to name just a handful (among many others hats you wear) ;) Wow!!! Keep it up, you motivate me to be more and do better. Love you!"

See I never knew the affect that I had on people until I started Positively Shining. Without you their is no ME! That is why I have to get back to ME so I can totally Positively Shine for YOU!

So here is to getting back to "ME" The fight I  WE will win TOGETHER! 

So Let's show them how we get back to us! 

The Climax....Prelude to "Getting Back to "ME" Part 2

Chapter 2 of where I left off....

So I will refresh your memory a bit...I was failing, fatigue, anemia, school, kids, work, goodness it just seems like I'm complaining but trust me I'm not!  That is one major thing that I do NOT do is complain.  I suck it up and make the best out of a situation.

The main obstacle is this blasted anemia.  How can I be Ms. Positivity if I am beyond moody?  Anemia makes you this way....it took me a good while to figure out what is wrong with me and it made so many things much clearer.  I mean I love to sleep but this was becoming way to much for me.  I'm 31 why am I in the bed sleeping at somebody's 7:30pm!?!....Oh because I have no more energy to keep my eyes open.  This affects everyone and everything around me.

I prayed-I cried-I slept-I pushed myself to the limits.  This is bad Shiners....sleep trumped so much, even quality time with my kids.  I prayed more, and trust me you don't have to be super religious to not give up and dang it that is what I DIDN'T DO!

This is very frustrating BUT....I refused to give up.....

To Be Continued....

Mood Booster Moments....It was trying to get me...Well NOT really

Well shiners here it is....my Mood Booster Moment of the week.

Let me set your mind so you can better understand the foolishness that I am about to present to you.

I was eleven years old in good ole Florida, this was the first time that I traveled alone without my parents.  I went with a neighbor, and I had a tons of fun.  We decided to catch a movie so we found a movie theater, my neighbor watches a movie and I watch another.  Skipping ahead, the movie lets out and their were hundreds of people coming out so I decided to wait for my neighbor over near a bush so she could see me or I would see her.  There was a ledge that I hopped upon but I was not comfortable so I adjusted myself.  Here is where the problem occurs, I sit back way to far and fall back into the small bush and guess what was in the bush????

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Tons of them were all over me, so now I have a phobia of crawling creatures pretty much by these ugly looking things that I wish fall off of the face of the earth so I can get my mind right....Anywhoooo.........

So now that I have given you guys the brutal squeamish background here is how 9/11/2011 at 2:38 AM went......

We-oh my boyfriend and I are relaxing because he just arrived to my house from work.  We are mapping out some plans because his birthday is next month so we are putting things in motion for a great birthday for him and this is what he says:
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BF: Babe ummmmm there is a huge bug over there.
Me:WTH WHERE? as I begin to panic-remember the phobia
Me:OMG TURN ON THE LIGHTS...(at this point my big behind is standing up in the middle of my bed) 
BF:Babe it is ok I am gonna kill it.
Me: OMG WHERE THE HELL IS IT?? I DON'T SEE IT(as if I really wanted to but I need to because I STILL don't see it.)  My BF moves his overnight bag...OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG GET IT WHERE IS IT?? (Poor BF is probably like why is she standing in the middle if the bed screaming while I'm down here with said creature) LMBO!!!! 
BF: Where did it go?
Me: (still standing my big butt in the middle of the bed with the creature NOWHERE near me) 
BF: Oh I see it-it is under the TV stand but I cant get it.
Me: OMG OMG (whining as I am still standing panicing in the middle if the bed now clutching my chest)
BF: WHAMMMM! he kills it....my hero!


Well Im glad that is over, as I am STILL standing in the middle of my bed like a plum fool.
                                       *And here comes the rant*

Me: Babe it was trying to get me!!! (No not really) if you weren't here I would of just died...you hear me DIED! LOL  It would have been on the night stand looking at me like "ohhh look at her there sleeping" And wait!!! What if I were going to the bathroom?! It would of been a puddle on the bleepin floor because I would of been trying to escape that ugly thing....that thing would of had the run of the room!
BF: (Smirking) Babe I killed it.
Me: NO NO NO I would have slept with the kids.
BF: You wouldn't have killed it?
Me: WHAT ARE YOU NUTS!!!!???!?!?!?! Cthu at myself now that it is over.

Shiners I had all sorts of excuses.  I even said if it would have been on me (mind you it was nowhere near me) I would have packed up and moved. Alright, I finally calmed down an entire hour later...(Yeah I know an hour) I get down off of the bed.

A total mess because was now 3:30AM #FOOLERY.....

****But it was really trying to get me though-i'm serious...Man Nevermind-Humph LMBO!!!****